Saturday, November 22, 2003
*nurul
lalalalaa. i noe i hafnt updated in 516541651 yrs. =P but been hafing a rather up and down week. =X happie at times, sad at times. and i realise abt how much happiness means to me. rite now, nothing matters, except for my own happiness. selfish you mite sae, but i'm tired of having trying to satisfy pple dat i dun become ME. my own person. i become someone else. totally not worth it. will i be happy? i definitely dowan to die a sad person. cuz trooth to be told, i had suicide thots, but hais. i was a very very very very FIRM believer in not cutting or committing suicide. but my soul is faltering. scared i mite gif in one dae. -prays to be strong- so all dat matters now, is BE HAPPY. so if i die tmr, i wont die a sad person, i will die a HAPPY person. grateful for everything. dats how i wanna die.